Completely, 100%, whole heartily trusting in the Lord is something I find myself struggling with at times. Especially when it comes to baseball. This time of the year (Spring Training time) I often find myself getting caught up in the "worries" and "unknowns" this lifestyle can bring. Although we have been told Daniel will most likely start this season in Jackson, TN (AA), I still say nothing is for sure in baseball until you are there. And then once we are there (wherever there may be) comes the "where will we live"..."do we bring our car"..."how long will be there"...the list can be endless. That is where TRUST needs to come in. The Lord has proven to me over and over again that He is our constant Provider. He has never failed us yet!
Yet, I still find myself lacking trust in my King of Kings! Why? Jeremiah says "Blessed" is the one whose trust and confidence is in Christ! I believe my lack of trust has to do with my desire to want to be in 'control'. The Lord has been showing me that in order to fully trust Him, I need to surrender my will, my desires and my future into His Hands.
In Genesis, God promised Abraham and Sarah a son. Yet, it took almost 24 years for that promise to be fulfilled. In the mean time, they took matters into their own hands in order to speed up the 'waiting process' instead of completely trusting that God would fulfill His promise to them in His timing. I often find myself doing the same thing, trying to take control and make things happen in "my timing".
My prayer is that in every insecurity and instability this baseball life may throw our way, that I would be grounded in the complete confidence that God is our provider and sustainer. By not trusting Him, I am trying to retain control of my situation. Today I am reminded to "Let Go and Let God". I KNOW His timing is better then our own in ALL things and that He will provide for our EVERY need (Matt 6:26).
Isaiah 40:31
"But those who TRUST in the Lord will find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint."
I can so relate to this post!!! I always worry about whats going to happen next... I actually did my testimony last night at our home group & I told them that I know why I live this crazy baseball life, God wants me to continually rely on him for everything I need. I am NOT in control he is! & by no means do I completely let everything go to him like I should but its something to strive for.. & I always tell my husband that God hasn't failed us yet so why would he now?! Love & prayers to you I totally know whats going on in your heart right now!
ReplyDeleteTanne- It's so true that this 'baseball life' really takes us out of our comfort zones and pushes us to completely trust in the Lord. Although, it can be stressful, crazy, etc... it's also like a blessing in disguise in a way bc it allows us to go deeper in our relationship with the Lord and puts us in a place of constant dependency on Him :) Thanks for the love & prayers. We serve a MIGHTY God, let's continue to place our lives in His Hands :)
ReplyDeletePsalm 5:11-12- "But let all those rejoice who put their trust in You; Let them ever shout for joy, because You defend them; Let those also who love Your name
Be joyful in You. For You, O Lord, will bless the righteous;With favor You will surround him as with a shield."
I love this post... I haven't been on blogger in a loooong time so after I read your recent post I scrolled down to some of your old posts. This one really spoke to me. I'm not a baseball wife, but sometimes I feel like I don't have control and I NEED to! So not true! After I give God control life gets all that much easier (Isaiah 40:31). Life without God gets so crazy and outta control. love you chelsea and praying for you...
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